I wish I could make my body do what my heart and mind want it to do.
Why did I not start dance when I was three like everyone else in the world seems to have done? I'm fast to learn choreography but slow to learn technique. Very slow. This always become apparent when I watch myself on video, and it looks like the day I started dancing.
I don't every think I've ever enjoyed watching myself dance. Sometimes things will look okay in the mirror, but something always happens from the mirror to the camera. All the sudden every movement is messy and ugly and depressing. I get really jealous of other people's opportunities sometimes--almost to the point where I feel sick to my stomach. I feel so helpless that I can't turn back time.
I'm just stuck. Why do I love something that I'm so terrible at?
Just a weird girl writing about sometimes funny, sometimes serious things...
1 comment:
but you are NOT terrible at it!!!! Just embrace what you have and the opportunities you get. Enjoy dance for what it is. Try your best and be happy with that. Comparing yourself is only an ugly downward spiral that leads to nothing good.
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