holding my breath

i'm not going to freak out. i'm not going to freak out. i'm not going to freak out.

[I'm taking the GRE today and hoping it can save the fact that I had my worst. semester. ever this past winter. I'm starting to believe that senioritis and being burned out are real conditions. Or maybe I just suck at life.... I just know that I've been feeling nauseous all week, and last night I cried from all the stress. I just want my life to work out. I don't have to be rich or famous or win the Nobel prize for some extraordinary scientific discovery. I just want to be a scientist and have some small part in that world...and I want some other things too...]