erase and rewind because I'm changing my mind

I love The Cardigans...just saying.

So 2009...

The good: I met some of my best friends Claire, Matt, and Adam.
I realized Mary was one of my soulmates.
I saw Yulia Zagorynchenko in the flesh.
I finally visited the other Washington (D.C.).
I took Human Dissection.
I discovered Nirvana and some other great artists.
I made a dance team.
(500) Days of Summer was created.
I found a place to live.
I got back in touch with Lauren.
Scott came down to BYU.
I learned a few things on the guitar.

The bad: My grandma passed away.
I practically failed o-chem in my eyes.
I lost a lot of drive for school after that.
I wasted money.
I wasn't able to live with Ashley or Katie anymore.
My sister was not here at college with me.
I lost sight of who I was.

The ugly: I got out of my running habit, and it shows...majorly.
I'm still a nail-biter.
Much of the year I felt...lost.

2009, you had your moments and changed my life for the better in a few ways, but I'm glad you're gone. It was almost too difficult to bear you at times.

BLURG

Gahhh. I just took my cell bio test. I even took it on not the last day (which might be a first for this semester...) And I got an even lower score than the first test!!!! I went to four hours of reviews and then studied some more. The TA made it sound so easy. Am I just retarded? If everyone else aced this test, then I really am a failure. At the same time I don't want everyone else to fail as well.

What happened?? Why does nothing work together for my good anymore? I can't even claim nerd status if I can't even perform well in my classes. I know I'm not the beauty of the bunch, but that was never really what I was trying to sell. If I don't have my intelligence and work ethic...

I have nothing.

Why does life hate me?