holding my breath

i'm not going to freak out. i'm not going to freak out. i'm not going to freak out.

[I'm taking the GRE today and hoping it can save the fact that I had my worst. semester. ever this past winter. I'm starting to believe that senioritis and being burned out are real conditions. Or maybe I just suck at life.... I just know that I've been feeling nauseous all week, and last night I cried from all the stress. I just want my life to work out. I don't have to be rich or famous or win the Nobel prize for some extraordinary scientific discovery. I just want to be a scientist and have some small part in that world...and I want some other things too...]

so...

I'm a little on cloud nine today.

It doesn't even matter that it's still freezing outside when it's almost May.

I'm just saying.

:)

Just saying

This is perhaps my most favorite thing.

oh yeah

So...I graduated!

I might not have been the top of my class, but I made it with hard work and integrity. Things are going to work out. I just know it.

Life is just so good. I can't get enough. :)

laaaaaaaaaaaa

so. close.

Evolution,

I should have paid more attention to you.

trying to be optimistic

This is the last time I will be cramming for awhile.

Just have to make it to Thursday...

Dear Universe,

Please help me do it all.

Love, Tanya

yeahhh

Phase 3=Success

Phase 3 is when you see the person that you were getting over and realize that it totally does not phase you anymore [and that pun was totally not intended!]. It's actually a very liberating feeling. And I guess it came so easily because I may be melodramatic, but I was nowhere near in love with this person. So, everything is pretty peachy right now on the emotional homeostasis front. I have MUCH bigger stresses and worries and anxieties in my life, which have dwarfed this whole situation. The only thing I wish is that I wasn't treated like the freaky girl who word-vomited her feelings to you late one night. Oh wait...

It's okay though. If my plans for fall solidify and I can stop worrying about my future, this summer is going to be pretty raaaaadd. Seriously. More details to come about my summer bucket list!